Robyn

Acceptance

Acceptance. You know, I was born. And. In my family, my mom really wanted a little girl. There was already a boy who looked exactly like my dad and I was. Little blonde haired? She just decided it was going to be a girl. Lock Stock and Barrel. And everything. Seemed. Just to be the norm until? At seven years old, she had a little girl. At which point? I was no longer accepted. In that role. But my dad didn't accept me. His son. Therefore, I was kind of just nowhere. Um, I continued through my Just always wishing somebody would accept me. And you know, I tried really hard? Be a man. I tried really hard to be. Everything that. Somebody might like, I was a fantastic athlete, but my dad didn't want an athlete. He wanted a scholar. My mom. Was scared of my dad and so. Continued to be. Really good athlete in numerous Sports. And he never once. Watched a single one of my. Deviants and? When I was? 14 he proceeded to tell me. That he didn't accept me as a member of his family, and he wished that I wasn't at all a member of his family At that point, I had long blonde hair, and yes, I. Certainly didn't. Like his image, which was. Short hair. And a scholar so? This is all in the early 1960s. He kept saying, I hope the Army gets you and they'll make a man out of you. Well. Like, I say, he told me that I didn't deserve to be a member of his family, and at that point.

Thankfully. Close. Friend of mine's family. Took me in. And. Showed me love and. Really felt. Considered, you know that this was? How life was? At 16. Left and? Hawaii from California, where I was living as a kid. And started my life in Hawaii. As such, you know, I? Had more women friends than I ever had Male friends. I've had very few male friends. I had lots of women friends. I tended to. Just. Feel comfortable with women, and I just enjoyed and kept it like that. That went on for. Many years my dad died when I was 18. At which point? Actually.

Uncomfortable because? He never got a chance to Here. I Need neither of us. Ever got a chance to speak again from when I was 16? And. Point. I was. Really, I'm sure of who I was. What I was? I knew that I wanted to be a woman. I knew all along, I wanted to be a woman And Live my life. Trying to prove always. What a man I could be. Um, it never worked. I've I'm now 71 years old. I've been married three times. Had very six decent success with. Money, and I've had decent success with. Being a businessman? It's really good at certain. Building aspects and construction. And I've. Proven myself there, but every time within my three marriages. If I was ever alone, I spent that time dressed as a woman trying to imagine myself as a woman And. Then in? Well, I became turned 60. I found out that I had something called kleinfelter's syndrome, and I actually have. Xxy chromosomes and? In essence, I always. Was sterile, I was was. Of agender and. Became comfortable to me to go ahead and start taking hormones. And. Leaving my life.

In the essence of what I felt most comfortable as, which is a woman. And that's exactly where I am. Now, at 71, I have.

Life. I feel accepted by many, many people. Here. At the same time, there's. Lots of struggle. For acceptance. A lot of people. Don't accept me. They don't accept who I am. They say that I'm. Only fooling myself, and you know, it becomes really difficult. Anyways, I. Priorly, hard to accept myself.

And I try really hard to be. Exactly who I feel I am. And. There's a lot of beautiful people that accept me as I am, and there's a lot of. Wonderful people that I love. Really, just can't accept me. In this rule. And. See me. Only the masculine. Which, you know, I no longer Embrace. At any rate. This is kind of what I am feeling. That's really difficult for me to. Kind of talk about myself. It's really difficult for me to.

I don't know. I just really struggled because. I love exactly this. Woman that I am. See so much. Struggle from other people to accept that. And each and every day. Is a journey of acceptance. Just today, I.

There was someone who I was hoping would accept me is who I am. And I saw. Don't accept that. And you know, you can read it in their eyes. You can read it in there, even if their words. One thing, but? Acceptances is really, really, something that just has to come from within me. As long as I accept myself. Then it just doesn't matter. What others think anyways? Well. This is. What I've got? And thank you, dear. I love you.